All at Once

All At Oncea novel by Adrienne BeckerRay Holliday has always struggled to feel the right things — guilt, desire, even grief. Branded a problem child by his mother and quietly judged by his town after his ex-girlfriend’s mysterious disappearance, Ray has learned to keep his emotions buried.But when Ben Kim — a calm, kind college student — saves Ray and his ex from a near-tragedy, something shifts. Ben is everything Ray isn’t, and the closer they get, the harder it is for Ray to ignore what he wants — or who he’s afraid to be.As secrets resurface and their connection deepens, Ray and Ben must navigate shame, longing, and the weight of the past in a story about what it means to be truly seen — and what it costs to stay hidden.