A dyslexic, Type-A, entrepreneurial Super Bowl–winner wannabe and micromanager who eventually surrendered it all to Jesus.
TJ Sharitz’s carefree childhood came to an abrupt end with a diagnosis of dyslexia and ADHD. Forced to repeat third grade without his friends, he was suddenly labeled “learning challenged,” defined more by his limitations than his potential.
Determined never to feel that shame again, TJ responded by taking control of everything he could. He would be funny: laughed with, not laughed at. He would excel in athletics: swimming, football, track. He would succeed in business, just like his dad. And God? God could not be trusted. After all, look what He had allowed. TJ tightly managed his life, believing control was the key to safety, success, and self-worth.
That illusion shattered one summer morning when TJ mysteriously lost his health to a strange terminal illness. For the first time, control slipped completely out of his hands. His body failed. His certainty crumbled. And the question he could no longer avoid was this: if he couldn’t control his life, could God be trusted to do it for him?
This inspirational memoir is the story of one man’s wrestling match with God over control, trust, and surrender. It chronicles a painful journey marked by illness, fear, and pride—and the divine intervention that led to unexpected healing, spiritual growth, and a new understanding of faith. TJ discovered that being a control freak wasn’t just exhausting; it threatened his family, his purpose, and his ability to truly live.
Part self-help, part testimony, this is a story about health, trust, and learning to let go.
In the end, the question was simple, but the answer cost everything:
Would he continue to wield control…
or finally learn to yield?
