The Illusion of … Not Being Into the Illusion: Philosophical Essays

Not so long time ago … I’ve written the book “THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF AN ILLUSION”.Honestly … i’ve not really understood the title…. even if it was written by me.Today … either.So i’ve started … again as a self therapy to understand what is my real spiritual level.Experiencing incredible lies into my life … but realising it … I’ve became aware that it was all an illusion.And … I’ve defined all as that.Later on … believing i am totally changed I’ve started this book called … “The illusion of … not being into the illusion” … but still i felt ridiculous.Yes.I had this sensation.Even pathetic.I was into the illusion … but i was so, so stupid to believe that i am not experiencing that anymore.That … i am awake.And … the Universe was laughing of me, behind my back.On and on and on.I was writing.Defining all…. even in micro details.But i guess i was even in a lower spiritual level cause i was experiencing lies … believing i can’t be fooled anymore.So … i was still fighting…. instead of smiling.Or … even laughing.I could do it, but i was still blind.Still in duality.Still in illusion.I was only having the weird illusory sensation of being or not being into this illusion of the self.Balancing … between believing contradictory ideas… about the same thing.But … all was a lie.Even all i thought or felt.Meanwhile i was continuing my writing … hoping that anything will improve.And … the charade still continues …